Weighing on my Mind
I am sitting at Chemo, getting my chemo and my immunotherapy today. I continue to watch the scale go up each week, so I asked my nurse if I am the only one who gains weight on Chemo. This happened the last time I was on Chemo, too. She said it is actually quite normal to gain weight. So, that made me feel better. I would rather have the weight than not have the weight, I guess. I was joking with my doctor the last time I saw him and he asked me how my weight was. And he confirmed it isn't better to have weight than not. But, still, I need to start forcing myself to walk every day. I don’t have the energy when I am on Chemo, but I really need to force myself. I keep saying tomorrow, but I need to start today.
Yesterday, I dressed up as Charlie Brown for Halloween. The kids got a kick out if it. They LOVE Halloween. When we adopted them, we brought them home just before Halloween. They didn’t speak English, but they dressed up and went door to door asking for candy. They thought America was great, where you could go door to door getting candy! And they have loved Halloween ever since! I didn't leave the house yesterday with my bald head, but it feels really good to be able to go bald around the house. The kids don’t mind at all and actually prefer it to me wearing my caps or wigs, which get hot and uncomfortable by the end of the day. I have been so impressed by how well my kids are dealing with everything. It helps that we are together while I am undergoing treatment this time. And it helps that things have been going so well so far. I am feeling good, and things have been pretty normal around the house. I think we are all living in the present now and are not thinking about the future. I have been reading about the new cancer vaccine at Mayo, and my mom had surgery the other day, and her doctor told her that there is a trial drug at Mayo that has been successful that is for the treatment of metastatic cancer. Interesting.
Overall, it has been a good week. I didn’t have many symptoms, and I wasn’t too tired. I nap late afternoons and fall asleep on the couch every night, but it has become routine. I think hydrating well has really helped. I ordered a new BKR liter bottle to motivate me to drink more each day, and it is out for delivery today. Perfect timing! So, not much to report this week, but that is a good thing. Just trucking along each day, living a normal life till my scan in December. I am getting excited for seven of my high school friends to come visit this next weekend! Next week Is my week off of chemo, so that is perfect timing, too, and I should be feeling well for their visit.
Will write again later this week.