Just Keep Swimming!

Thought this pic was funny! I have mixed emotions about PET scans. I look forward to them because they give me information, and the more information I have regarding my cancer the better. But I dread them too. It causes all sorts of scanxiety. I scheduled my next PET/CT scan for December 30. And I’ll have my next appt. with my oncologist on January 13th. I was so happy to postpone my scan until after the holidays, but now Tom’s CT scan is scheduled for Monday, and I’ll have scanxiety for him and while waiting for his results. Praying both our scans come back clean!🙏🙏🙏 I missed writing from chemo last time, and now chemo is coming up on Wednesday already again. My son is home from Army training and Boot Camp, so I am debating whether or not to take him as my chemo buddy this time. My husband actually brought it up. I think it might be a good experience for him to see what I go through because he’s never seen me sick with cancer. I never let my kids see me tired or sick. Not intentionally, but I think I just want to keep things as normal for them as possible. But now that my son will be getting stationed here and abroad, and I don’t know how often I’ll get to see him anymore, I kind of want him to see that this is real and start to deal with some emotions in case this scan or future scans come back with different results. I am feeling great, other than fatigue, so I am going to try to stay as positive as my scanxiety will allow. So far, the scanxiety is minimal. I’ll try to write again from chemo on Wednesday and let you know if I decided to bring my son with me, or if he decides to come. He’s my kid with a great big heart, so I think he’ll choose to come, but I’ll understand completely if he doesn’t. If I don’t write, Merry Christmas to everyone, and a HAPPY, healthy New Year to you all, too! I’ll for sure write either after my scan or with the results in the new year. I pray it’s going to be a good, healthy one for me and for all of you!