Where I Want to Be
Just an update today. I will have a PET/CT scan on Monday. I am due for one, and we will try to figure out what is going on with the pain in my ribs. I am also still having the pain in my neck, so I am anxious to see if the images will show anything. It feels like I have a knot in my neck, and I can’t turn my head right or left without some pain. It’s been this way for a month, so I’m a little worried about it. But, I also bought a neck massager because that’s where I tend to carry all my stress. I don’t really feel much stress lately, so I’ll be anxious to see what my scans reveal and/or what my chiropractor might say/do when I see him next week. Until then, waiting for the neck massager to arrive!! My massage mat has done wonders for the aches in my back! No real scanxiety yet for this scan. I am feeling great, other than the pain in my ribs and neck. And despite the results, I am in a positive frame of mind. I attended a writers’ conference this past weekend, and it was AMAZING and inspirational. I’ve been wondering if I really want to put this much effort and time into the time I have left if I never even finish my novels, but after this conference, I know I do. It’s what I’ve always wanted to do with my life, my biggest goal. I am spending each day trying to get closer to where I want to be, just like normal and just like everyone else. I am just going about my days appreciating each day and it’s normalcy. I am enjoying my daughter’s school sports meets and games, and I’m enjoying writing and just normal, everyday things. I get my first covid shot on Saturday, so, hopefully, things will just get back to more and more “normalcy” again relatively soon. I am an introvert and a homebody, but I am starting to really want to get out and about exploring and going to wineries and restaurants and movies again. Well, I will let you know the results of my scans as soon as I get them, or I’ll write from chemo on Wednesday, whichever happens first. Until then, stay safe and healthy, everyone! And prayers for a clear scan on Monday would be MUCH appreciated! Thank you!!