Drippin'

This chemo break has been awesome so far! I think it has already been worth it. Not only have I gained 10 days of my month back (from no chemo days and no side effect days), I already, unexpectedly, have more energy back. I am getting things done, and I feel like I have so much more time back!! Time has felt like such a gift for the past nine years on this cancer journey, and I am loving every minute I’ve gained from this chemo break. I didn’t realize just how much cancer was taking up of my life, even in remission. I guess it has just been my life for the past nine years. I’m especially feeling the gain of more time during the holidays. I have had enough energy for several trips to the Post Office to mail boxes to friends and family, I’ve been able to make cookies, decorate every room of my house, go to Christmas parties, wrap presents, plan big meals and still have energy left over to clean the house for my guests, who arrive today! I am feeling so blessed and so thankful this Christmas without having opened any gifts yet. I have been given the intangible gift of time, and I couldn’t ask for more (although I’m always asking for more time). This month has gone so fast, and there has been so much to do that I haven’t been too worried or thinking about cancer returning much, and it’s been so nice. I am feeling for any new lumps and bumps everywhere, and I am paying attention to every little ache and pain — headaches, neck aches, etc., but I’ve not been obsessing over it. I am just going to thoroughly enjoy this break, this time, and not worry until I have to. I’m feeling the same as when I was on treatment — not feeling sick or like something is wrong, so I am just living life. It’s drippin’. And the only kind of IV I want from now on is the one pictured above: Some Vitamin Sea. Sounds good on these dreary days of December. My company arrives today, so I probably won’t get a chance to write until the new year, so I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Hope Santa is good to everyone, and I’ll write again in 2024! Thank you all for all your love and support in 2023.