Not Feeling So Amazing Right Now
I hung this picture/saying in my spare bedroom/Reiki room, and it applies to my cancer journey now, too. I am going to feel amazing, and I’m going to go overseas while I am off treatment! But I’ve had a rough week. My body has been adjusting to being off chemo again, and it has caused some issues. I had a rough couple of days last week and over the weekend, and what happened caused me to have several daily instances of my heart rate being fast. It was at 150 when I checked once yesterday. And with my fast heart rate, my oxygen goes low, down to 93 and 94. Basically, when I exert any energy – trying to do some housework, walking a short distance or going up a flight of stairs, my oxygen lowers and my heart rate goes up. I feel worse and more tired than I did on treatment. It scares me a little; I’m afraid I’m going to have a heart attack. It would be completely ironic and awful if I died from being off treatment instead of from treatment. I went in for my port flush and told my nurse, who was super nice and great, about what has been happening, so she went and talked to my oncologist’s nurse, and they ordered more bloodwork. I also had an ultrasound this morning. So, hopefully, between the imaging and blood results, we’ll have some sort of idea of what is going on. I’ll keep you posted. Just wanted to post about why I haven’t written in a while. It’s been frustrating not being able to do much and having to sit around a lot -- especially when my foot is starting to heal now and I really just need to move and want to use all this newfound energy I have back -- it has been frustrating not really knowing what is going on, and it has been frustrating dealing with this issue of my body being out of whack while it adjusts to being off chemo and immuno again. But, even if I had a rough week, it is still wonderful being off chemo and immuno. I’m grateful for this time and chance to live life “normally” and to its fullest again. Still planning a bucket list trip while I’m off treatment. Now thinking about Italy instead of London. Difficult choice between the two places I’ve always wanted to go. Maybe we can fit both in?! Will write again soon, hopefully with some answers and when I’m feeling better. Stay safe and healthy, everyone!