Race Against Time

Going to have to write fast today because the anti nausea drug that makes me sleepy is already starting to kick in! It’s a beautiful warm day, and the sun is out, so I am enjoying sitting by the window getting refueled today. I haven’t written in a while because I’ve just been busy living life. I have realized, though, that I’ve been trying to pack too much into my days and never feel like I’m making progress, so I have had to tell myself that it’s OK not to get my cookbooks done for my kids cuz they have my recipes; it’s OK if I die before I get my books published. It’s OK not to have everything perfect or complete when I die. I am wasting my time that I do have left not enjoying life trying to pack too much into each day, so I have decided to slow down and just focus on the things I need to get done in a day and relax about the rest.

i am a bit worried because the pain in my ribs has gotten worse, especially at night. I wake up a zillion times at night from the pain. I am also still having the neck pain. I can’t look left or right, up or down without pain. So, I have a doctor appt. with my primary care doctor on Friday. I feel like a hypochondriac going in with two issues, but I am anxious for some answers and some relief from this literal pain in my neck and ribs. I also scheduled a massage, and I have a feeling I’ll be in tears on the table with a release of emotion and all the tightness I carry in my neck and shoulders from this treatment. I am soooo looking forward to a massage!

Today is a Zometa infusion. YUCK. But my nurse told me that I should drink TONS of water to try to flush it out of my system as quickly as possible. Good tip!! I plan on hydrating galore for the next 24 hours!

Well, I am getting sleepy. I will write again next week if I find anything out at my doctor visit. Otherwise, I’ll write again from chemo in two weeks! Stay safe and healthy, everyone!