Things Can Change

I try to keep that in mind whenever I have a scan. Things can change at any time. I forget that they can also change for the positive at any time, too. So, I’m feeling optimistic now going into this scan, this scan that was supposed to have happened yesterday. Unfortunately, due to a rare computer problem, we were disenrolled from our insurance, and I couldn’t get my scan yesterday. I spent all morning with insurance, and I was able to reschedule my scan and the following appt. with my oncologist. My scan will be on this coming Thursday (not today) at 1 p.m. I’ll have to fast all day before my scan … ugh. Anyway, I’m grateful for the appt. and that I could get in relatively soon as my scanxiety was growing. I was pretty miffed yesterday as I’d already started the low sugar/low carb, no caffeine diet before I was told I couldn’t have the scan. And I was pretty miffed that no one offered an apology when my appointment was canceled because scanxiety is involved. I was actually looking forward to my scan and mentally prepared for it. And now I wait again. But it’s OK. I should be used to “hurry up and wait” as a cancer patient. My dad always says this; he learned it from his time in the military. And I need to remember it now. I’m going to have a busy week, and the scan will be here before I know it. Besides, I’m happy with where things are at, and I don’t want anything to change, so I should just be content with still being in remission until my scan next week. So, I will plan to write again from chemo on Wednesday, and then I’ll either write again Thursday after my scan or when I receive my results. Just a quick update today to let you know my scan date has been changed. Have a nice weekend, everyone! Stay safe and healthy!