Happy in a Hammock
I missed writing from Chemo yesterday. I woke up sooooo tired, slept at chemo, came home and slept till 4:30 p.m. and fell asleep on the couch at 7:30 p.m.! I was groggy and had a headache after chemo, so I just tried to sleep it off. I have been nauseated after chemo for many cycles now. I like to blame it on my husband’s crazy driving, but I know it’s from the curvy, hilly roads of Calvert County (and perhaps my husband’s speed going over them?!). I found the Sea Bands my mom gave me, and I decided to try them out yesterday. She swears by them, but I had my doubts. They totally helped with my nausea, and yesterday was the first day after chemo that I haven’t had nausea!
I went to my first sound bath this past week. I had my doubts about its effects, too, but it was amazing! I felt like I had just done yoga when I got up out of my hammock. That’s me in the pic above! I found it really physically and emotionally healing. Will definitely be going again.
Masks were optional at chemo yesterday. It was the first time I had seen my nurses’ faces! It was a really strange feeling to be maskless at chemo.
My scan is next Wednesday. About this time next week, I will either have my results, or I’ll be checking my portal incessantly. The scanxiety is settling in big time. I’m usually hopeful and cautiously optimistic, but I keep thinking of the five year mark and how I am approaching it, and I can’t help but wonder if something will show up on a scan in the next year. I am so comfortable being in remission now, I don’t want things to change. I keep thinking that maybe I beat this terminal disease somehow, but then that five year mark looms in my mind. It hangs around more as my scan gets closer. I will meet with my doctor the same day as my next chemo to go over the results. So, I will update from chemo again in two weeks. I’m sure I’ll write next week when I get my results from my PET/CT scan too. I’ll need to process the results either way.
I am considering stopping my blogging -- if my results are a clean scan again -- until my cancer comes back. My readership is going down as I continue to do well, and I am at such a good place in my cancer journey now that I don’t have too many thoughts about cancer anymore. My updates are always, thankfully, the same – I am doing great; I’m thriving with this diagnosis right now. No news is good news, right?! But, if they find anything in my scan, I’ll keep blogging to keep you all updated and so that I can process everything. We’ll see how my scan goes. I’ll write with the results next week! Your prayers and continued support are very much appreciated!
Have a good week, everyone, and stay safe and healthy!