A Spring Scan
I am at chemo, and I am alone for a while today, so I am shopping for cute, comfy chemo pants online as I wait for my chemo to mix in the pharmacy. I shouldn’t be doing that, so I am blogging now instead! The weather is just so nice today that I am looking forward to cropped pants and flip flops again. I am loving all the trees and bushes that are in bloom – forsythia, red bud, dogwood, cherry – and all the daffodils and tulips -- all the Spring plants I love in Maryland and Virginia. Spring is my favorite season – so full of life and hope. I’m feeling full of life and hopeful going into this next scan. I got it scheduled for the first Wednesday in May, which will come up fast! I think I’m OK with whatever it shows, at least I’m prepared either way the results go.
I forgot I was getting Zometa last time at Chemo. I didn’t do too bad with it this time, which was nice! I don’t know if I’m getting used to it finally or if the Advil and Claritin are really helping. I was just down for a half a day with it this time instead of a day or two.
I finished my devotional last week and am editing it this week. My mom is painting the cover for me with her newly discovered watercoloring skills. The cross above was a practice painting. Again, the writing of the devotional was very cathartic, and so is finishing it. Through it, and through my blog, I have been able to deal with everything I’ve ever thought and felt about cancer. So, I am in a really good place with it now. I want to stay in this place for a very long time and am praying for a good scan again!
Nothing really new to report. I just have a red line, caused by some irritation that is now showing under my neck, on my chest, where my port tube is attached to my vein. I can’t feel it. I just notice it more now because it’s getting longer, a reminder of how long I’ve been on chemo. It’s kind of sad I have been on it for so long, but it’s a really good thing, too! It’s just another visible physical change from cancer, another little battle scar.
Speaking of ports, a Facebook friend is having her port replaced, and she said it is now done under local anesthesia. I have had it done completely under anesthesia and with nothing. It was not a pleasant experience having it done without anesthesia. It wasn’t painful. It was just not a great experience being pulled about on the operating table. I don’t like when you can’t see what’s going on. I like to watch the screens and monitors. I find all these procedures fascinating if I can watch what’s going on. I think a local anesthesia is a good compromise, but I’d still prefer to be knocked out for it.
Anyway, I hope there are no procedures in the near future and that my scans come back clear again. I will write again from chemo in two weeks. I’ll probably have some scanxiety when I write next, but until then, I am just going to enjoy the sunny days and Spring. Happy Spring to you all, and stay safe and healthy everyone!