Taking Life One Day at a Time

Long time, no write! I have been busy just living. Yesterday, I had my port flushed. It went perfectly. I was in and out of there within 10 minutes. Next thing up is another port flush in six weeks, and then, I have my oncology appt. May 21 with the nurse practitioner. We’ll set up my next scan after that appointment. The other morning, I woke up twice with the room spinning. I had not had any alcohol the night before, so it freaked me out a little. My mind jumped to “it must be a brain tumor.” I’m over that now! I woke up feeling much better today and am just trying to hydrate more. I’m on a deadline to send a book proposal in by Monday, so I have been drinking way too much caffeine, I’m sure!

I am finding that I don’t want another scan for a long time because I just want to keep things as they are. But it has been the longest I’ve gone without a scan, so I kind of am looking forward to one to make sure everything is still good. I am at the five-year survival mark, so I feel like this cancer should or will come back any time now, and I hate thinking about that. I prefer to think I am miraculously healed and that I have too much going right now and too much living to do, so that’s what I’m focusing on right now. I’m feeling good and am back in the busyness of life. Trying to find a balance between taking it slow, appreciating everything around me, and living as stress-free as possible, one day at a time and just going with all that is going on around me – but isn’t that what we’re all trying to do? Feels good to be back into life and just living right now. Thankful, grateful, and blessed. The birds are back, the flowers are blooming here; now, we just need the sun to come out and stick around! I’ll write again soon, maybe before my next port flush in six weeks. Enjoy your Spring, everyone! Stay safe and healthy!