Going for a Radical Remission

I haven’t written for a while. That is because I have been busy just living and spending time with seven of my high school, lifelong friends. I started to post about my weekend with them four times, but I just cannot explain the weekend and how much of an impact they have and it has had on me and my cancer fight. I will try again tomorrow at Chemo. In the meantime, I received a book from one of my good friends called Radical Remission by Kelly A. Turner, Ph.D. I am skeptical of following some things usually since some things are myths about cancer. I never know what to try. But I have flipped through the book, and I have started reading it, and it is based on Turner’s research regarding the nine key factors that can help people survive cancer against all odds. I believe that the nine factors are just good things to practice anyway, so I am going to try doing them: radically change my diet and exercise daily, take control of my health, follow my intuition, use herbs and supplements (need to read this chapter — a bit unsure of this for me), release suppressed emotions, increase positive emotions, embrace social support, deepen my spiritual connection, and have strong reasons for living. Like I said, I am doing most of these anyway to fight my cancer. It just makes sense to me. I think I just need to focus on diet and exercise more. I am really trying to deepen my faith, and I think that handing my cancer over to God is also really important in this fight. I received this book at a perfect time because tomorrow, I will start my fourth cycle of chemo, after which I will have my first scan. I enjoyed weeks without worry, just living, and my friends’ visit came at the perfect time, when I was just basking in living and enjoying each day. But as my scan gets closer, I am finding that I am getting anxious for it. I don’t want to get bad news, especially as my results will come right before the holidays. Yet, I want to know what is going on. I know that no matter what the news, I need to keep my eyes on God and expect a miracle, and I need to expect a radical remission, as much as I need to expect ups and downs during this fight. There is just no other option for me than to try to do all the things in this book and to expect a miracle and expect a radical remission. No matter what the outcome of this fight is, I will never expect less because I believe it is just the right way to live and to fight cancer.