#rocketsontheloose
I met with my doctor today. It is always sobering. I asked, and we talked, a little about statistics regarding the regimen I am on now. The regimen definitely extends life, but when I see a year and a half or two staring off a recent study page in black and white at me, it sobers me. I am still believing in faith and a Christmas miracle, though. It is just hard when Tom and I were discussing how fast the months are going to go until his retirement on the way to chemo this morning, and each month has become so important to me now. I almost dread flipping the calendar, and the days and months go by so quickly. I want to write about my awesome weekend with seven of my high school friends, and now, I am so very grateful for their visit and that it came when it did. I think my friends did not expect me to be doing so well, but I am glad I got to see them when I did. They came at just the right time, and I really needed that visit. We had such a great long weekend. They rented a house in Chesapeake Beach, and it worked out great. I cannot even explain how good the whole weekend felt, to relive memories and to make new ones. They reminded me of who I was and who I am. Sometimes, through life and kids and all the different roles we fill, it is hard to keep sight of that. But my friends have been a constant in my life, and it was overwhelming to me how much support I have. I am so very blessed by all of you. I have never had that many friends throughout my life. We move a lot, and I don’t make friends easily because of some social anxiety. I would rather have a small group of friends who I am close to, and that is what I am lucky enough to have had since 6th grade, when I began to meet my forever friends. I get so overwhelmed by everyone’s support, and I know that that is so important in a cancer fight, and I feel very lucky to have the friends and family I do and that I have the support to give this fight the best shot. I had an amazing weekend with my friends, the best gift that anyone has ever given me, and I feel very blessed to have had that weekend and my friends. It was just a perfect weekend, and just exactly what I needed. And now I have a new purpose — to be around for the next episode of Real World Rocket-style. #rocketsontheloose