Deep Thoughts

Poe is my favorite author because of his dark, deep thoughts. I love the quote above on the sticker I found at bigmoods.com. It means how could we know what is good if we didn’t have the bad? But, to me, right now, it means if I didn’t suffer through cancer, how would I know that I am blessed? I have learned so much about life and about myself among many other things, and I have learned how blessed I have been and I am through going through cancer. And that is just exactly what I am feeling lately: blessed. I am just living and not thinking about cancer.

My thoughts this week, on my week off of chemo, are about adjusting to life with a retired husband! Going through cancer, I have learned to slow down and appreciate everything. My husband is still in work mode, and gone are my days of easing into the day with the news and coffee!! We are up and running early now! I am trying to keep up and just live life with all it’s craziness while still trying to go about it and stopping to smell the roses. So, I am trying to find a new balance of living this crazy life with slowing down to really remember and appreciate all the little details, to appreciate everything. Because that is what I am feeling this week: blessed and alive and appreciative!

My hair continues to grow. And I am still feeling some depression from my medicine, I think. I will talk to my doctor about it next week. I see my nurse practitioner next week. I think it should be a simple appt. because I am feeling great, and there is no new news. I will update from Chemo next week!

Stay safe and healthy, everyone!