My Sentiments Exactly!
I chose this saying today because it’s exactly where I’m at. I am working on three different writing projects, minimalizing the house, sorting through photos for my daughter’s graduation, and wanting to do and complete all sorts of projects before I die over cleaning because cleaning is starting to wear me out. I need to get it done in the morning because I am physically worn out by 1 p.m. I’m trying to decide what to prioritize in the morning when I’m at my best. But I’m hoping through participating in this study, I will feel less fatigue, which is really my only side effect from treatment, thank God. I have been focused on exercise all week. I am prioritizing it each day. I have to wear a Fitbit for 12 weeks, and it holds me accountable! So, it has been great! I like having information when it comes to cancer, and now I have all sorts of information on my Fitbit to keep me prioritizing exercise and my health. I have been trying to do so much before I die, and I get overwhelmed. So, I have decided to focus on just making sure I work out each day if I get nothing else in because it is the one thing that will help me the most on this cancer journey, the one thing that will benefit me most in life, for the rest of my life. I really admire the patients who tell me that no matter what, and no matter how I feel, I NEED to force myself to at least walk a little each day. I am hoping I’ll be able to do that if and when this cancer comes back and I feel more effects from treatment. So, with all the exercise, I am feeling great, mentally and physically. I am filled with hope for getting back into great shape again, eventually, and for the future. My scan is in a month. Starting to feel a little scanxiety but mostly anxious to get the scan because this is the longest I have gone without a scan.
I have been reading The Bright Side Running Club, and it’s really good so far. It’s so interesting to me how Josie Lloyd can write a fictional account of what it’s like getting diagnosed with cancer and what it’s like to have cancer. Impressive! I think I’ve decided how I want to tell my story, through a devotional. This is so different for me and not what I ever expected I’d want to write, but I have been on quite the spiritual journey through cancer, too. It’s deeply personal to me, so I don’t blog about it, but I think that my miracle of doing so well on treatment has a lot to do with what I’ve learned through having cancer about faith, hope, peace, etc.
It is a beautiful day here. It’s going to be 80 degrees! Woo hoo! Gonna go for a long walk on a trail at the beach today. So, I’m sitting here with the sun shining through the windows (no window seat today😭), and it feels good to be refueling. My nurse is from Minnesota, too! She’s nice, of course! 😀
Tom had his colonoscopy yesterday. The results came back clear — no cancer! Yay!! So, he’s good to go for five years before his next one! Hope I can make the five year mark with metastatic cancer because the odds of survival aren’t good after that, and that would mean I have really been given a miracle! I’m in no rush to get there, though, just enjoying one day at a time. I am three years into this metastatic cancer journey right now, and that amazes me, especially having triple negative cancer.
Well, from now until next chemo, I just hope to keep the scanxiety to a minimum. I’ll write again in two weeks! Hope you all have a nice Easter! 🐰🐥 Stay safe and healthy!