Focused on the Present

For the first time since starting my blog, I have nothing to say today as I settle into chemo. I guess no news is good news! I am doing great! I think I will have had my scan by the next time I write from chemo in two weeks. I haven’t looked ahead on my May calendar yet, but I know my scan is within the first 10 days of the new month. Right now, I have no scanxiety. I am looking forward to the scan in hopes it will be clear again, and I am dreading it because I don’t want to know; I just want to keep things as they are right now. I’ll post once I get my results, once I meet with my doctor afterward and from chemo the next time, whichever happens first.

The study is keeping me busy working out, and it feels great. I’m working out twice a day, and so I feel great mentally. Physically, my arthritis or joint pain feels better. My knees creak going up stairs, and I still get breathless after a flight of stairs, but the pain is much better!

April 28 is my friend’s birthday, and it was the day I was first diagnosed with breast cancer, so it’s easy to remember. I was thinking the other day that her birthday is coming up, and then I realized it has been seven years since my first diagnosis! Seven years of dealing with cancer, I thought, but then I felt really lucky. I am so lucky to be here seven years later and almost three years (in July) after a metastatic breast cancer diagnosis! My birthday is coming up in June, and I’ll be 47. That sounds so old to me, but I’ll take it! I’ll take every birthday I can get!

Well, I’ll write again within the next couple of weeks! Hopefully, I’ll have good news! 🙏🙏🙏 Stay safe and healthy everyone!