New Year, New Choices

Sitting at chemo, and the elusive sun is finally shining, and I have a window seat. I am feeling blessed, grateful, excited, thankful, and happy! Just happy and content living life. It is so nice not to think about cancer so much anymore (only on these chemo days) or worry about recurrence anymore. I can’t believe I’ve hit a phase where I am comfortable with this diagnosis. I am so blessed, grateful and thankful I can just thrive with metastatic cancer right now. I feel like things have finally slowed down in my life for the first time since being diagnosed in 2015. And I am just really able to enjoy life and be present in it and take things one day at a time. That’s been my goal for so long, and I’m really loving being able to live one day at a time now! I’m at peace with my life and this diagnosis. I’m not gonna worry till I have to. So, feeling great the past couple of weeks! I am working out every day now since the new year began, and it feels great. I am determined to walk every day because I think it’s so important and to lose some of this chemo weight. I can’t do what I used to, and I get sooooo tired and worn out from just walking that it is really frustrating. But I’m walking through the frustration, and I’m seeing some improvement. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to swim or run again while on treatment, but that’s the goal. I’ll just do what I can because exercise not a chore; it’s a gift.

I have a doctor appt. coming up at the end of the month. I’m not sure if it is before or after my next chemo session, so I’ll update again after the one that comes first. Stay safe and healthy, everyone!