This is Life

I forgot some things that I was going to write about at chemo, so I’m creating a new post. I picked this saying today because it’s really appropriate for my life, my upcoming week, right now. I’ve been thinking about a lot of memories, which evoke a lot of laughter and some tears. And that is life.

I had chemo with a different crowd today since I had chemo on Monday instead of my usual Wednesday. There was a man behind me with metastatic cancer that had spread to several places. And there was a man across from me who was suffering. It makes the reality of my diagnosis, well, real. I am trying to go about my daily life almost as if I don’t have metastatic cancer. But when I see people who are suffering from having cancer, my heart aches for them, and I am forced to face the reality of the disease. It’s hard to vacillate between just living life as a metastatic thriver and worrying about the future. I think about how metastatic breast cancer almost has two groups of people in two different situations, on two distinctly different journeys — those who are lucky enough to be able to thrive with the disease, at least for a while, and those who don’t get the chance or hardly the chance. Anyway, just something I think about.

On another note, my port did not return blood AGAIN at first. The last time, I had to lay on my left side, so the nurse wrote in my chart that I need to lay on my left side. And, wouldn’t you know, I had to lay on my right side to get the blood return today! 🤔🤷🏼‍♀️

The nurse ran my immunotherapy over an hour instead of a half an hour today, so hopefully, I will feel less nausea over the next couple of days. That seems to make a difference for me. I am nauseated tonight, so I’m hoping it is better when I wake up tomorrow. I seem to be having more nausea lately. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Getting tired, so I’ll sign off for the night. It’s 9:45 — late night for me!🤣

Stay safe and healthy, everyone!